If only wishes came true

I really wanna pull off the scene look. I always wanted to be scene I love their style I love the hair I think that’s the best type of person that describes me. You got you preps, your tomboys, your jocks, your Goths, the nerd, and the scene kidz. To pull this off I really think I need to lose wait. I am doing this for me no one else this is what I want to do. I want to lose weight so I can wear skinny skinny jeans with tank tops that I don’t nee to worry about sucking in my gut. I wish dieting was easy. When the warmer weather comes I’m going to promise to my self that I’m going to run the track, imma work out more, imma eat healthier. I’m deciding that the only candy I can eat is Twizzlers nothing else. Cause you always need that one sweat treat ;) but other wise healthy food from now on!

Pon and Zi

Love this quote

"I cry for the time that you were almost mine,  I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you"

gone forever?

I’m sad and broken hearted. I can’t stand that you like another girl. I always wanted you and only you. To see her and she how much prettier she is and how many differences there is between us is just death to my heart. You are a player. I hate you. But I can’t get over you. Why do you do this to me? I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t live without you. But you don’t want me. How am I supposed to live with myself to know that?

My picture. My quote.

I love you

I hate that I love you. I can’t stop thinking about you. Because of you, I don’t want to go out with anyone else. You are my love. You are my life. I dream about you. I never want to wake up from you. I know I’ll never have you in reality. It hurts to know that we were so close. But now we separated. People thought we were going out. It hurts to hear that. I wish you knew I still liked you. I wish I didn’t have to pretend. I wish you could love me back. I wish you could see this. I wish you knew how I felt. I hate that I love you.

new friends, old friends, & frenemies

So I’m so excited! Its vacation! Tomorrow, first tennis practice of the season (its indoor practice). There’s only one down side to that. This girl I hate is now joining tennis and knowing her, she’ll talk to me. I never gave her a fake name and I’ve never talk you about her so I’m just going to call her “Blond Bitch Fish Lips” She is so annoying she talks in this baby voice, she always brings up that she’s the one who introduced me to my favorite band. She showed me one song! That’s it one song. I look into them more. We used to be friends, but people change. Anyway, I’ll just talk to my cousin; she’s driving me there anyway. Also, tomorrow my best friend who lives in Smithfield is sleeping over :D I love it when she comes and visits it reminds me some friends will always be there no matter how far. Again I probably won’t talk about her a lot but for now I’m calling her “Vanessa” (Rowan, if your reading this…it doesn’t matter to you really, you don’t even know her in real life haha sorry) So Vanessa and I were friends since we were in daycare together with this other girl, I’m going to call her “Brooke”, it was always just the three of us. Until we went to elementary school...Vanessa moved to Smithfield, Brooke went to catholic school and I went to public school. But me and Vanessa still stay in touch but Brooke got new friends and she never has the time to hang out anymore. So…Vanessa is sleeping over and I can’t wait to see her. Also, on Wednesday, I’m getting “married” to my best friend Shawnee. I love her…and my friends. I think we are the only people who fake marry other people. And we are doing a whole wedding and everything at her house. This should be interesting ;)